This song was introduced to me by Teddy during his 1 hour slot on Bristol University radio this week, and I’ve been listening to it ever since. According to the dictionary on the Internet it’s an ‘informal North American expression’ meaning ‘force of character, determination, or nerve’. That’s what I need at the moment, so ‘The Moxie’ it is.
I have been so busy over the past few weeks with work and my boards and various other things that I’ve been able to push tomorrow’s surgery to the back of my mind. I’ve been upbeat and positive and full of bravado about my upcoming ‘tummy tuck’. Last night, however, it all fell away as I was getting ready for bed. The reality suddenly hit me and I felt scared, worried, and very tearful. It took me by surprise, but it felt good to let it out.
Happily, waking up to the sunshine this morning, walking the dog with Trendy, and enjoying some of our freshly-baked, mother-daughter homemade sourdough made everything feel a bit better. More tears were shed throughout the day, but I’m definitely feeling more hopeful than I was last night.
This afternoon, when Hillary and I checked into our VIP suite at the Hampshire Clinic, we were greeted by two old friends from my previous ops, and later I had a quick chat with my anaesthetist followed by a visit from Mr. Moran which kept me busy. More of my former nurses have popped in to say hello and wish me well this evening, and I’ve been overwhelmed with all of the lovely messages, emails, calls and FaceTimes with friends and family. I even received a link to a ‘Kudoboard’ with some brilliant silly videos, old photos and lovely messages from friends as well.
I couldn’t feel better supported or more loved going into this op, and I’ve got the A-Team doing the surgery, so I’m in as good a place as I can be.
Thank you to everyone who is following the blog and sending messages of support to me, Trend, Teddy, India and to my Mum as well. And thank you to everyone who is remembering me in their prayers. It means a lot to all of us. I’m now handing over to Trend to keep the blog updated for the next few weeks while I work on my Moxie regeneration.
Brenda won't back down 
Good luck
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Bren, sending our love and best wishes for your surgery and recovery! 🙏❤️
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Sending you much love and strength from sunny California I am glad that you have the support of Hilary. I admire you so much. xxx Anne
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Sending all our love and prayers to you, Trend, Ted and India xxoo
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Brenda,I recently came across the Japanese art ‘Kintsugi’ and now think of life like this. Cracks appear and we get broken but each time you get repaired with powdered gold. And I pray this time too you heal and another golden seam is added.
With love. Perminder Xx
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You and Hilary have this! Here’s to your speedy recovery. Prayers are being lifted for you Now!
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Brenda, Trend, Ted and India, thinking of you all and hoping for a speedy recovery back to Wonder Woman mode! Love and hugs, Diana and Keith
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Dear Brenda, Mrs. Hebb, Trend, Teddy, India, and Bonzo: You remain deep in our hearts, thoughts and prayers as we bear witness to another great act of your courage and strength. “May the health be with you.”
Kimbob xoxo – Canada
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Sending you big hugs from Deep Cove. Wishing you a speedy recovery. My thoughts are with you Tren, Teddy ,India and your mom.
Love and hugs
Linda
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You have always had moxie Bren! Sending my love to you Trend India and Teddy for a successful surgery and recovery. Huge love, Louise 💜
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Sending all possible good thoughts and prayers to you Brenda for tomorrow, and to Trend and all your family too. One day at a time. You have moxie in spades and I have every confidence it will pull you through – with a little of Hillary’s determination and strength to boot! Lots of love, Susan
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Stay Strong Brenda. Hope it all goes well today; sending love, positive vibes and prayers for a speedy recovery 💕🙏
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The dictionary has a picture of you for Moxie Brenda! Sending you lots of love and hugs, Tamara, James and Hugo
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Sending lots of love and moxie. You will be in our prayers. Kate and Andrew xxx
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If I think of anyone who exemplifies The Moxie, it’s you. You got this. We love you and look forward to catching up post op. In the meantime we’re dancing…. xxxx
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I am thinking of you today & hope the combination of The A team’s skills with the love & support of your family & friends & your determination help you through this. Xx
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Thinking of you, Mark, India and Teddy. With our love, Annemarie and John
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Thinking of you and sending much love to you, Trend, Teddy , India and your lovely Mum. Xxxx
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Thinking of you today and wishing a speedy recovery. You got this!! Sending our love and best wishes, Love Kel and David!
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My thoughts are with you and family Brenda, I just know you have the strength of character and the ability to see this through. You are an amazing woman and there are many people looking out for you and ready to support. Very best wishes Jacky x
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Lots of love and thoughts with you today Brenda. All the strength for a quick recovery!
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My dear lovely Wonder Woman .. praying for your surgery success and your mental strength to carry you over this hurdle . Lots of love . Nadine
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We’re thinking of you darling Brenda… wishing you lots of good and wholesome recovery time. Huge love from us over in Bali!! X
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