This song was introduced to me by Teddy during his 1 hour slot on Bristol University radio this week, and I’ve been listening to it ever since. According to the dictionary on the Internet it’s an ‘informal North American expression’ meaning ‘force of character, determination, or nerve’. That’s what I need at the moment, so ‘The Moxie’ it is.
I have been so busy over the past few weeks with work and my boards and various other things that I’ve been able to push tomorrow’s surgery to the back of my mind. I’ve been upbeat and positive and full of bravado about my upcoming ‘tummy tuck’. Last night, however, it all fell away as I was getting ready for bed. The reality suddenly hit me and I felt scared, worried, and very tearful. It took me by surprise, but it felt good to let it out.
Happily, waking up to the sunshine this morning, walking the dog with Trendy, and enjoying some of our freshly-baked, mother-daughter homemade sourdough made everything feel a bit better. More tears were shed throughout the day, but I’m definitely feeling more hopeful than I was last night.
This afternoon, when Hillary and I checked into our VIP suite at the Hampshire Clinic, we were greeted by two old friends from my previous ops, and later I had a quick chat with my anaesthetist followed by a visit from Mr. Moran which kept me busy. More of my former nurses have popped in to say hello and wish me well this evening, and I’ve been overwhelmed with all of the lovely messages, emails, calls and FaceTimes with friends and family. I even received a link to a ‘Kudoboard’ with some brilliant silly videos, old photos and lovely messages from friends as well.
I couldn’t feel better supported or more loved going into this op, and I’ve got the A-Team doing the surgery, so I’m in as good a place as I can be.
Thank you to everyone who is following the blog and sending messages of support to me, Trend, Teddy, India and to my Mum as well. And thank you to everyone who is remembering me in their prayers. It means a lot to all of us. I’m now handing over to Trend to keep the blog updated for the next few weeks while I work on my Moxie regeneration.