This week I had my ‘Christmas Chemo’ session on Wednesday with a number of visitors and lots of festive spirit. It was the 3rd cycle of 12, so I’m a quarter of the way there. It’s been important to me to try to make it fun with visitors and to try to laugh my way through it. However, if I’m being totally honest, I must admit that having chemo is crap. The neuralgia in my fingers, my toes, my tongue and face from the cold, my inability to drink anything that isn’t warm, the horrid taste in my mouth, the nausea, etc. It’s not nice. As a surgeon said to us on Wednesday evening, ‘we could kill all of the tumours, but we would kill all of the patients.’ It’s a delicate balance between mixing a chemo cocktail strong enough to do the trick, but not so toxic as to do permanent damage.
After cycle two, I thought that I had it all worked out and that I would be able to continue to function as usual throughout. However, I am starting to realise that just as I think I’m getting into my stride, the next cycle is like the incline and speed on the treadmill being ratcheted up a couple more notches. It really is a marathon rather than a sprint. I now know that I will have a real dip on Friday I get disconnected and the Saturday as well. Yesterday I had to give in to it and have a lie-in and I also had to decline a very nice Christmas Party invitation last night. It was a good decision – I’m feeling much more energetic today. I really hate feeling weak or having to slow down at all so this is very very hard for me, but I know that it’s worth it in the long run. A quiet Friday and Saturday every two weeks shouldn’t be that hard to do.
How am I doing otherwise? I had a call with the amazing Brendan Moran (my surgeon) on Monday and am encouraged to hear that there are some interesting developments with my cancer happening in Australia. I also hear lots of good things about the power of cannabis oil, which I will look into after my chemo finishes. I’m still feeling positive and hopeful – long may it continue.
Happily, I now have a break from chemo until the 27th December, so we can enjoy Christmas.
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Glad to see you are getting some rest – listening to your body. Hugs Linda
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On Sun, Dec 17, 2017 at 12:10 PM, Brenda won’t back down wrote:
> brendawontbackdown posted: ” This week I had my ‘Christmas Chemo’ session > on Wednesday with a number of visitors and lots of festive spirit. It was > the 3rd cycle of 12, so I’m a quarter of the way there. It’s been important > to me to try to make it fun with visitors and to try to lau” >
Dear Brenda. I did receive your ever welcome card. Sorry that chemo is getting you down. Take care of yourself and enjoy the season the best you can. Thinking and praying for you. Barb
I am sure that chemo is no fun Bren. Wish that I could be there with you. Nice that you have a break until Dec.27. You will have a wonderful Christmas with everyone. Get your rest and everyone there will be happy to help you with dinner etc. Always thinking of you. LOTS of LOVE Mummy xoxo
Great photo Bren.
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Hi Brenda, always good to hear that nothing can ground you and you can smile at everything, despite the challenges. You’re stronger than the tumor, the chemio and everything else. You can “eat them for breakfast”, one could say. Happy Christmas.
Hope you are enjoying your chemo break. Happy Christmas x
Wow. Just simply ‘Wow’. I love you and am cheerleading for you from the sidelines with every day and ‘post’ that passes. Remarkable Brenda. All my love and hugs….Susan xoxoxo