Tears are not enough

Screenshot 2019-12-05 at 21.00.08Brenda writes

‘Totally cr*p day today. No need to sugar coat it. I was not ready to give up the pain relief. I had many tears and have had some pain relief back. They are re-instating my feeding tube as I can’t consume enough calories on my own. They want me to eat chocolate bars and crisps and get at least 2000 calories a day – I can’t get near it. On a positive note, Trend helped me to have a shower. Not so strong today, feeling a bit sorry for myself. But that’s how it goes.’ x

Enough said. I will be popping into Starbucks on my way in tomorrow to buy an 800 calorie Signature Hot Chocolate with double whipped cream and marshmallows on top.

13 thoughts on “Tears are not enough

  1. Oh dear – I guess there will be good
    days and bad Brenda. Hope tomorrow is a better one. Stay strong and it okay to feel sorry for yourself – you’ve been through so much!

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  2. Hang in there lovely Brenda, sounds like you had a horrible day but there will be better ones coming along. Well done Trend, get them to add extra marshmallows! Lots of love xx

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    1. When you’re going through shit, just keep going. ‘Driving home for Christmas’ is right around the bend (it might be a blind bend) x

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  3. I’m sorry you’re going through this. Hope the pain relief kicks in quickly and the feeds help build up your strength.

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  4. Dear BrendaStay strong…meds are good!  Wishing you healing rest!LoveThe BurkesSent from my Bell Samsung device over Canada’s largest network.

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  5. Morning Brenda and Trend,
    Sorry you’re feeling rushed, Brenda. It’s still very early days, isn’t it, and there are so many hurdles. But how lovely to hear your own voice on this page – and that you tell it like it is.
    Wrapping you in the most enormous cyber cuddle for this particularly rough patch. xx

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  6. Oh Brenda – you are doing so so well and you’re an absolute inspiration. Nancy and I look at your progress every single day and we really do miss you in the office. You are in our daily thoughts and prayers. One day at a time xxx

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  7. I so hope today is better than yesterday. Tomorrows tune needs to be ‘don’t be so hard on yourself’. Even superwomen have ‘off’ days. xx

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  8. My dear Brenda . I al’sôsorry to hear that you are having a bad day . Without bad days we would not know what a great day is .
    Tears are good , go ahead cry you head off . I wish I could be there to hug you and give you super’charged positivity and optimums . Just know every night before going to bed I try to send you all my energy for you to fight those challenging days . You can do this .. can t wait to share those chocs with you Very soon . All my love Brenda . Hang in there

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  9. Hi B & T
    Sorry to hear that you had a bad day yesterday Bren. I hope that today will be a much better day for you. Shed all the tears that you can as it does help give you some relief. Of course I hope that you won’t be crying in pain. Thinking

    Loads of Love to All
    Mummy xoxoxoxoxo

    Sent from my iPad

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  10. A really big virtual hug to you both. Crap days just suck and the only good news is that a new day follows. Which I’m really hoping has been better for you. Hang in there. You’ve got this. ❤️❤️❤️

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