As David Bon Jovi says, ‘we’re halfway there’. I had chemo round 6 on Wednesday – the first one at home – and it wasn’t too bad. In fact, despite the horrible side-effects, it’s been a good week. It doesn’t get any easier – in fact, it gets a bit harder each time, but I’ve learned how to cope with it and I’ve had some great distractions this week that have really helped.
Firstly, I have to thank all of you who continue to send such wonderful positive messages and thank my visitors who have brought books, magazines, soaps, oils, flowers, lovely warming soup, homemade bread and the ‘bread fairy’ who posted a delicious dark sourdough loaf from the Isle of Wight. After years of not eating many carbs, nice toast has become a staple. I was listening to a meditation app today that talked about feeling cocooned in a warm hug, which is a great way to describe all of the wonderful love and support I’m feeling. It’s incredibly restorative. Keep those big warm hugs coming!
On top of this, Teddy released his EP last Monday and it’s getting great reviews – please do go on Spotify, Napster, Deezer, iTunes or whatever streaming service you use – he wrote the title track, ‘Blue Skies’ for me when I was recovering from my surgery.
I started this note on Saturday when I was still flying with steroids and felt invincible. I must admit that when I got up this morning and was getting ready for work, I realised that I actually needed to crawl back into bed. So, with half of my make-up on, I emailed my pa and cancelled all meetings and climbed back into bed until 11am. I’m fine, I was just worn out and feeling a bit off. It was a good wake-up call to remind me that I can’t be Wonder Woman every day and do need to be kind to myself once and a while and slow down. It’s all part of the process, which will allow me to endure another 6 of these horrid cycles which will hopefully make me better in the long run. As Teddy sings ‘It’s only blue skies and sunshine up ahead.’