Living on a prayer

As David Bon Jovi says, ‘we’re halfway there’. I had chemo round 6 on Wednesday – the first one at home – and it wasn’t too bad. In fact, despite the horrible side-effects, it’s been a good week. It doesn’t get any easier – in fact, it gets a bit harder each time, but I’ve learned how to cope with it and I’ve had some great distractions this week that have really helped.

Firstly, I have to thank all of you who continue to send such wonderful positive messages and thank my visitors who have brought books, magazines, soaps, oils, flowers, lovely warming soup, homemade bread and the ‘bread fairy’ who posted a delicious dark sourdough loaf from the Isle of Wight. After years of not eating many carbs, nice toast has become a staple. I was listening to a meditation app today that talked about feeling cocooned in a warm hug, which is a great way to describe all of the wonderful love and support I’m feeling. It’s incredibly restorative. Keep those big warm hugs coming!

On top of this, Teddy released his EP last Monday and it’s getting great reviews – please do go on Spotify, Napster, Deezer, iTunes or whatever streaming service you use – he wrote the title track, ‘Blue Skies’ for me when I was recovering from my surgery.

IMG_0218I started this note on Saturday when I was still flying with steroids and felt invincible. I must admit that when I got up this morning and was getting ready for work, I realised that I actually needed to crawl back into bed. So, with half of my make-up on, I emailed my pa and cancelled all meetings and climbed back into bed until 11am. I’m fine, I was just worn out and feeling a bit off. It was a good wake-up call to remind me that I can’t be Wonder Woman every day and do need to be kind to myself once and a while and slow down. It’s all part of the process, which will allow me to endure another 6 of these horrid cycles which will hopefully make me better in the long run. As Teddy sings ‘It’s only blue skies and sunshine up ahead.’

13 thoughts on “Living on a prayer

  1. Brenda we are always thinking of you as you go through your chemo. You must be so very proud of Teddy. Sending our love and big hugs from Norfolk xxx

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  2. You are doing great Bren. Wise of you to pop back into bed this morning! You will get there just the same and feel more refreshed. You have a fantastic support group and all there with all of you. I am looking forward to spending time with all of you soon. Rest up. Lots of love to all of you. Mummy xoxo

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  3. Hi Mrs T! I am sending lots of love and hugs to you. I am also so impressed with Teddy’s song- what a total star! Keep strong, love Miss E xxx

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  4. My goodness .. what a roller coaster and yet you are so in tune with your feelings and wise to the actions you need to take. Roll on those next 6; ridding your body of that poison and to recovering a level of normality in your lives. See you soon.

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  5. Think about you every day and send you little psychic “strength” packets to put a little back in your petrol tank. You’re the strongest person I know.
    Love me and Erin and Griffy and Phoenix.

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  6. thinking of you… xx

    On 30 January 2018 at 00:24, Brenda won’t back down wrote:

    > brendawontbackdown posted: “As David Bon Jovi says, ‘we’re halfway there’. > I had chemo round 6 on Wednesday – the first one at home – and it wasn’t > too bad. In fact, despite the horrible side-effects, it’s been a good week. > It doesn’t get any easier – in fact, it gets a bit harder e” >

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  7. It was terrific seeing you after such a long spell. I am in awe of your indomitable spirit – it is going to be, no doubt, an equal partner to the medical treatment in your ultimate recovery. Big hugs and lots of love and prayers from us all!

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  8. Brenda think of you often. Had problems with fb and wasn’t rec’g your posts. Now fixed and just read your last post. You are a very inspiring lady and I admire your positivity and yes, it’s ok for WW to have a day off and listen to her body. I have listened to Teddy’s
    “Blue Skies” several times. It’s a beautiful song. He is an amazing young man with beautiful voice
    Sending my love and best wishes.

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